Hope

Today I went to the physical therapy gym because they have all the equipment I need to get a quality workout and it is fit for a person in a wheelchair.  It got me thinking however, I remember when I got out of the hospital in 2006 when I came out of the locked-in-syndrome.  I was working with a physical therapist who was also teaching a student.  At that time I had little to no strength at all.  The student working with me was doing most of the work because I would tire out pretty quickly. 

Simple tasks that we all take for granted like:  sitting up, holding yourself up rolling from side to side, and even using your arms and hands to lift or position you no longer came easy for me.

Yet, here I am 8 years later and the student that was helping me back then is now my physical therapist, who is helping me with the smart bike that I am trying to acquire.  I was doing an evaluation with him after a few weeks using the bike and everyone there including myself noticed the change from then to now.  I was moving across the mat with no help from anyone except to hold my legs together to work on an exercise and I even stood up with his help.  My mom told me that all of the therapists stopped what they were doing and just watched because they were all there at that time.

Remembering all of this while I was doing independent gym gave me an euphoric feeling that made me want to keep working and not to give up because if I have come that far then who knows how much longer it will take me before I will start walking again.  The only thing standing in my way is my own insecurities and fears which I have to put aside to reach my goal.

The decision has been made!

I have finally come up with the decision to start an online fundraiser to try to raise the money for the smart bike that I am trying to get. I have been to the physical therapist and have used this amazing bike twice and am amazed how well it works. On my last appointment I rode for 2.25 miles! No one had to help me pedal all they did was to place my wheelchair in the right position then anchor it to the machine and hook me up to the electrodes and from there the system can tell if I need help, whether or not my muscles are fatigued and what muscle needs help.

I researched the many online fundraiser sites and went with GoFundMe. The link to my page is http://www.gofundme.com/7y475s 

I have raised $300 already and am excited.

Brain freeze

I know I have not written in my blog for a while but I was having a writers crisis.  I was trying to figure out what I should write in my blog and also having trouble with my memoir.  Finally, yesterday I realized that this is my blog and I named it yassieslife because well it is about me, my thoughts, my challenges, my achievements and anything else I want to write about, so whats the problem.  With my memoir, I am having trouble with description and a little bit of memory but that I will have to talk to my professor about or if anyone has any hints they would like to share I would take any advice. 

Anyways, right now I am thinking about my challenge of trying to walk.  I feel like I am so close to being able to stand on my own, I just have to figure out how to work on the muscle that helps me extend my knee and also keep working on my hips, all of these muscles are essential to walk.  The only hard thing is finding the right exercises to work them out.  It doesn’t help that I am in a wheelchair and am doing all of this from my house.  I may sound like I am complaing and maybe I am but hell, I can complain a little it doesn’t mean I am going to give up.